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confession 2: escaping a house party that’s supposed to be in my own apartment tonight by calling a friend who’s supposed to be at the party to let me stay over. 

he doesn’t have internet, but he has a cat. 
i’m actually very excited. 

nvm. stuck around to help people put underwear on, lift them from toilets onto beds, and watch someone break our glass door. walked up the mountain and had a long talk with housemate after chaos subsided. was 100% calm all night and didn’t mind cleaning and looking after people all night, oddly 

confession 2: escaping a house party that’s supposed to be in my own apartment tonight by calling a friend who’s supposed to be at the party to let me stay over. 

he doesn’t have internet, but he has a cat. 
i’m actually very excited. 

confession: ignored everyone’s texts tonight in favor of staying home and playing video games 


curled up under fairy lights with oolong tea. very pleased with decision. 

how much more of my life is destined to be spent sleeping in airports… ? 

"meaning: be lost, peace, hide, mistake, beautiful, in turn” 


most conflicted definition i have ever seen in one word

     In many parts of Asia, 20 is a significant year representing “coming of age”. It’s different than buying alcohol or tobacco, lottery tickets, or being able to drive a vehicle, which we can do at 18 or younger. It is at age 20 that you are legally an adult. At 20, you are a full member of society. While your parents are still alive, you cannot open your own bank account or have sole ownership of assets until you are 20. If you are brought to court on charges, your actions will tie back to your family.. It is at age 20 that these ties are severed, and you are held fully responsible for your actions. 

     No other year has made me so introspective about entering it. It’s strange. Even two days ago, I didn’t think twice about it. It was never about waking up one day and being different. But if you look back on yourself a year ago, a lot has changed. Did I ever take responsibility for my actions? Or was I always trying to hide behind someone else? 

     Carrying these thoughts into consciousness on the day of my 20th year, I woke up early and drank 2 cups of coffee even though there was no work or school, so I guess that’s a start. 

there aren’t that many times left that I’ll say that 
I’m 20 tomorrow, too 
20… 20 sounds so different in the head than the years before it 
but here I come 
back with some rekindled dreams 
and I’m not letting anyone get in my way this time

(Source: neongenesist)

i talk to my kids more or less like i would talk to my friends 
i think that makes a big difference